Figuring out life

I’m trying to find something to base my life upon
Something in this strange world that goes on and on

As the years go by and time fades away
What used to be "good days" are now filled with dismay

Tomorrow comes, and then again, it goes
And my ambition to become something more, grows and grows

Around the corner, yet miles away
The life I want now, gets closer each day

All I've ever wanted was something to live for
I don’t want to be this little person anymore

I’ve been basing my life upon what others think
I wish I could go back and redo everything, every time an eye would blink

I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be
I have to remind myself that one day, I will be free

Free from the rules I followed as a child
When everything was a game and life was so mild

Now times have changed and I realize nothing is fair
And sometimes it seems like nobody even cares

It’s like no one pays attention to what I feel is best for me
And what I think about the way some things should be

I understand now, that I’m pretty much on my own
And I know a lot of what I can do will never be known

All the time, I think about everything I can’t say, what I have to keep in
And by doing this, my thoughts only get more complicated and deepen

Soon I hope to find out who I am, and what I am meant to become
I want to know where I’m going, I don’t need to be reminded of where I came from